Sneaky as a snowfall that blankets the world overnight, life changes unexpectedly. It often takes you by surprise and everything around you suddenly becomes unstable.
All it takes is one event, one experience and everything is different.
I allow things to break me apart, i'm fragile. To the outside world I may seem stable and sturdy; I wish this was reality. I'm not careful enough to protect myself, i'm easily lead into trouble.
But as unexpected as a sunshower, I feel things begin to shift. Despite the friendships that are injured beyond repair and people that have been lost, I'm still here. Life is not going to stop and wait for me to catch up.
Luckily, i'm surrounded by people who won't let me fall behind. The one who I've been leaning on the most is the most surprising. He's been there the whole time, but I didn't want him to be. I pushed him away, I caused the rift. I tell myself i wasn't ready, but i think i was really just afraid.
Now he's back, here for me when i need it the most. He always saying the right things and making me feel better.
When things get bad I use my regular defence mechanisms to push people away, but I think this guy might stick it out. I'm prone to severe mood changes, i'm unpredictable. Some people just can't deal with it, but I guess you could explain me like that saying..If you don't like the weather just wait 5 minutes.
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